Enlightenment

Today I had a talk with several people about several things and one thing came from all those conversations: God’s will will be done.
I’m not sure all those people realized that while we were having our conversations that I was in deep thought. I realized that ‘you win some and you lose some’.  I see it as a storm and a test before you come out on the side of something greater and I’m definitely pursing what is greater.

A year ago, I was in undergrad working toward becoming a producer (television) and I just knew that I had found my calling in life and then God told me that it wasn’t my calling — or at least at the time it wasn’t my calling.  At the time, I thought it was the devil because I had worked so hard at figuring things out and aligning my life to the purpose that I had set for myself. I of course got a rude awakening.  When I graduated, I found myself in a dark place. I had no job, no place to live (at least not one I could pay the bills at) and debt. I was this way for a while and if you look on the surface, I still am in that place but inside, I’m not. I have a part time job, I have the time work on my craft (writing) and I am making enough to make a slight dent in my debt. I still don’t have a place to stay but I believe God brought me back to my parents house for a reason.

Since I’ve been back in Memphis, I’ve come in contact with lots of people. People who are doing things greater than I could ever imagine, people that are encouraging me and people that I can see myself progressing with. I didn’t quite understand why I had to move back home and why other people could go and find opportunities in this “recession” to live their dreams and a few days ago (when I began this post) it hit me. God had a purpose for me moving back here. My life wasn’t meant to be the easy road. It’s always been said, “If there is no struggle there is no progress” and I am definitely the progressive type. Luckily for me, I found someone that is willing to progress with me and I think… no scratch that I KNOW that having him along for the ride has made all the difference.

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